maths
well, all the figures on both sides of the equations seemed to add up. And it seemed so simple too. A few tricky portions here and there, of course, but still it was straightforward. or so i thought.
ahhh, it all doesn't add up anymore.
i could just redo the whole question right from the start, which would be simpler and easier. but i don't want to waste all my previous workings. maybe it was just one itsy bitsy little step wrong? so i'll painstakingly work my way backwards, checking and rechecking all my workings every step of the way.
but god, its so tedious.
rainy day
if there is someone you want to protect, you would become stronger. but if you just grovel in your own tears and grime selfishly, you'll only grow weaker, and get eaten by time.
now, that came out of no where.
sighz, i just want to be there for anyone who need me, when they need me. to protect the people i love and to be able to make their life better, even by a little bit. but i'm just so thick headed and insensitive, i don't think i'm able to help one bit. or even recognise when and how they need my help. i guess the only thing that ever gets across is my sincerity; ...or maybe not.
sometimes i wish i could be better, but i guess wishing never gets one anywhere. i'll just try harder, and hopefully, be able to be the 'protector', instead of the 'protected'.
supernatural
"she looked up, and saw a little girl standing on the tree branch above her. 'what are you doing up there? its dangerous!' she said. it was then that she realized the girl's feet were talons, and she had wing structures on her shoulders. she turned to shout for her mother, and when she turned back to the tree, it was empty of anyone. and the little girl is standing atop another tree."
Hantu. One of the types of supernatural creatures in malay folklore, the winged humans, thought to reside in the mountains north of malaysia. and in that region too, the area between thailand and kedah, are the stories of garuda sightings. a coincidence?
The above extract was a story of what my aunt saw when she was a child. she told my father the story, and although she had forgotten about it, he still remembers, and in turn told me about it. he believes, and so do i.
i don't think we had discovered everything about our planet. i'm sure there are still many odd and strange species out there that are not yet brought to light. the yeti, apeman, garudas, dragonfishes, loch ness... many people totally discarded the possibility of their existence, but wouldn't it be fantastic if they did exist?
it would be fun if i could travel to these haunts, and try to seek proofs of their existence. not to publicize, or to raze them out of hiding; just to see for myself, with my own eyes. and even if i do not have the chance, i hope that SOMEONE could get to know for sure if these creatures do exist. ah~ its hard to describe this feeling... heh. its... awesome?
"he was in the army, travelling through the jungles during the war. one day he saw a huge man-like creature, it looked like an ape, only bigger. frightened, he shot it, and they left the body in the jungle. that night, a group of the creatures went to their camp-out, and squatted outside the boundaries crying the death of their member. the villagers advised the soldiers to give them salt as compensation. cupping a handful of salt each, the creatures left the camp in peace."
Hitogata
"'Hitogata'... a word that has been used in this world for years and years, the origin long lost in the mists of time. Hitogata can mean several things. For instance, it can simply be a doll in the form of a human, or an ornament or decoration that is missing a piece of itself. ...But it is especially used in secret to disdain a child that is entirely MISSING one of the core human emotions: joy, anger, pathos, humour." [extract from Kimi no Kakera]
Pathos. i wonder what it will be like, if one is unable to feel pain. would it make one immune to hurt? and also remove the capacity for fear?
fear is like this totally irrational emotion; extreme fear freezes up the mental and physical processes, and increases one's chances of screwing up. fear, too, prevents one from trying the less-trodden paths, and closes the doors to various opportunities forgone. its stupid. and it is the simplest solution to preventing one from getting hurt, the fear of getting hurt often stops one from doing things that would increase the risk of hurt. the irony is, most of the time, the greatest amount of regret and pain is dished out by this stupid reaction.
bleah.
"It... it wasn't me! Shiro... [broke the lock] oh and i only picked this [the sword] up because Kuro told me to-"
"...you're blaming it on others again..."
